September 3, 2013 - Pretending

Good morning everyone, I pray your Labor Day was amazing, as was mine. I had all my girls over, grilled wings, and even got in the pool. YUM. I really wanted to make a little "sweet something" to complete our lunch. I started thinking through what I had in my cabinet and what I could toss together. I love impromptu recipes, although I am such a planner and a schemer. I found almond butter and added some xylitol, almond flavoring, eggs, butter flavoring (not butter) and some almond flour. (no oil or butter other than in the almond butter) I rolled them into balls and baked them. They were really good - need some tweaking - but really good start. They were totally gluten free and had no additional fats outside the nut butter. I am thinking some pecans and cinnamon would really round this out. I will keep you posted. I felt the Lord began to speak with me a couple of days ago about pretending. You know some people make a lot of money pretending, don't they? I have to say I was in the pretender class for MANY years of my life in relation to my body. I "acted" as though I was eating healthy while in front of those who "thought" I was on the straight and narrow health path (again). But then there was the night. Someone once said, "we are what we are in the dark." YIKES. I could pretend and hide most of the time, but when I was alone I could no longer pretend. I would gorge myself and then LIE and proclaim that I would never do this again. Ever been there? I was pondering this blog last night and I felt the Lord really ask me about pretending - "is it lying?" "NO - not like telling a REAL lie, I responded." However. I felt the Lord come back and show me myself in His question. (as He often does) For me, I was lying to myself for much of my life. I pretended and lied to myself about having no recourse, "that I would start fresh tomorrow," and that I was genetically disposed to be a food addict. I pondered last night as to whether lying to oneself was really lying as it only affects the person invloved???? Think about that for a moment. I could only be free when I quit lying and making excuses and completely and forever closed some tough doors. I no longer pretend to be healthy - I am healthy whether at a meal at your table or at home when totally alone. Can I tell you that is freedom worth fighting for? Hoping your Tuesday is the best it can be and you are fully confident that you are well loved! PK